Running Scared
Scared
of loving and being rejected
Scared
of hating and being damned
Scared
of reaching and bringing back nothing
Scared
of dying and never having lived
Scared
of failing without ever succeeding
Scared
of succeeding and being found lacking
Scared
of the nothingness of only existing
Scared
of believing and finding life is a lie
So many
fears and so much hiding
No energies
left for loving and caring
Yet
always a dream of something better
Of sharing
and growing with someone else
I am
still dreaming of a better life
And
fighting the fear there is nothing more
I tell
myself daily that if I stay in the fight
I will
win someday...
Lynda Leigh (c)