A Special Friend
So
many years I have waited
I had
lost the longing for another
I was
doing just fine as I was
The
feeling of loneliness and aloneness
had
been buried beyond recognition
I had
become my own person
I was
content to be alone
I never
lost the belief that someday
There
would be someone for me
Yet
year after year passed by
The
hunger faded into the past
And
living for each day the best I could
Became
a way of life for me
No longer
did I feel incomplete
I had
learned I could count on me
Now
a whole new world has opened
I feel
the love in his hands
And
the tenderness in his voice
My heart
responds and grows warmer
His
desire feeds my own
Sometimes
with flames I had forgotten
His
kindness thaws the icy fear
His
acceptance brings down the walls
Occasionally
the cold draft of panic
Tries
to overwhelm the warmth
But
I would rather share love
Than
close myself off again
I don't
know where it is going
This
new found love of mine
Yet
I find I am willing to wait
And
patiently enjoy each day
As a
precious gift given me
For
only God knows how long it will last
And
I am willing to accept and give love.
(this was the original poem 2001 and here is the finish)
I no
longer have him in my arms
And
at first the hole he left seemed bottomless
But
life goes on and so do I and I have him in my heart
He gave
me the gift of knowing I can love again
And
finding there is still a passionate woman inside me
We remain
friends in a different way now
And
I am willing to share my love again
Even
if it is not forever
Lynda Leigh (c) 2002